Walking On Water

Sometimes the plans we make don't always pan out like we hoped. Like this holiness series I started on my blog for the omer count. For the first two weeks I felt like what I was writing and what I was learning went hand in hand. After that, my posts felt more and more forced. God is continuing to teach me and grow me, but instead accepting that, I try to continue with my own pre-planned agenda.

Today is the 36th day of the omer. Over the last 35 days, I've drafted up two or three blog posts that I never published (and probably won't publish). One's called "My boat" in reference to Peter walking on water with Yeshua. The other is called "Poor in Spirit", the first of the beatitudes. The third one I already deleted some time ago. I bring this up because these drafts were the kind that are written as an outlet for myself rather than a show for everyone else. Both of them center on my lack of faith.

I don't think it's God's power that I have trouble believing. I mean, He created the universe--is it such a far leap to say He can do whatever He wills with it? Nor is it His wisdom. How can an omniscient God not be wise beyond our understanding? I think the part that is hardest to believe is His love.

Why would an omniscient, omnipotent, ever-present God, the King of the universe, whose voice most of the time I cannot hear--why would He care to attend to the details of my life? When I approach Him in prayer, I always hasten to say at the end of each request "not my will, but yours" and then wonder, why am I making the request in the first place if His will is just going to override mine?

A few things God put in my hands these last few weeks: A book about George Muller. He ran an orphanage in Bristol. He started for one primary purpose--to prove that it could be done by solely relying on God. The way he prayed and the way God answered his prayers are just amazing. Everything George prayed for he jotted down in a journal, and then when God answered he jotted that down next to the request. What's most amazing about his story is that he started out in his youth as a crook who thought prayer to be childish. God transformed this man into an amazing example of faith and prayer.

A verse from the book of Matthew: "And Peter answered him, 'Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water'" (Matt. 14:28). Command me to leave the safety of my boat to walk on the unsteady waves? Did Peter seriously just ask God to pull out his safety net, his security blanket from under him? The culture today says "God expects you to take care of yourself." That if we do not build our boats securely, we will sink beneath the crashing waves. That those who say they will walk on the water are either too lazy or too naive to build a sturdy boat. But to intentionally ask God to teach me to fully rely on Him--well, that's a dangerous prayer.

Truth be told, I don't know how to walk on water and I don't know George Muller's "formula" for successful prayer. Most of the time, I don't even know how to listen for God's voice. So, I fall back on what God taught me several years ago: "Even if you fall, I will catch you." Because of that, one thing that I can believe God for is that He will not desert me and leave me to my own devices. That He will not give up on me. And through His infinite wisdom, He will find a way to get through my thick skull and soften my hard heart and get me to a place where I can grow (after all, He knows me inside and out).

Maybe if I stop trying to force my own self-growth plan and let the Father do His work in me. Maybe if I stop trying to figure it all out for myself and just trust Him to guide me. It's like that first year of piano lessons, when you want so badly to play something epically awesome, but instead you feel stuck playing scales and learning the basics. And you just "know" that if your teacher let you jump ahead to the hard stuff that you could do it. And maybe you could learn to play one or two songs like that--but the learning would not be the same. In my efforts to live righteously, it's the same thing. I feel like there's no time to be playing around with the small stuff--that I've got to learn it all at once. But that's not how growing works. Most of the time growth is so slow you hardly even notice it is happening. And this can result in the feeling of going nowhere. That's when you have to trust that God is doing His work in you. Imperceptible sometimes, but very real.

So, I won't despair over comparing myself to Muller or other believers, but thank God for such people and the encouragement I can find in their stories. And I may not know the first thing about walking on water (I'm not sure Peter did either), but I will pray that God will call me out onto the waves so that I may learn to fully trust Him. And when I fall, as Peter did, I know His arms will be there to catch me.

Holiness: First Fruits

The earth is the LORD’s and the fullness thereof,
the world and those who dwell therein,

-- Psalm 24:1

In Deuteronomy 6 we are told to love the LORD our God with all our heart, all our soul, and all our "might". That last word there, "might", has been interpreted by some to mean "possessions" (that is actually how it is rendered in the Targums). Which raises the question, How do you love God with your possessions?

The first thing that may come to mind is the tithe. There's actually a couple different tithes in Scripture, but they're all centered around the same two principles: the first fruits of our labor belong to God, and it is our responsibility to take care of the poor in our midst. But it doesn't stop there.

The tithe follows the same pattern as other things we have discussed. You set apart a portion as holy, not so that you can leave the rest as common but so that the whole thing might become elevated through the holy portion (Rom. 11:16). The fact is (as the Scripture above indicates) God owns everything. Your house, your money, your fields, your car--they are all on loan from God. And He has the right to remove these things from you at any time. We are simply servants whom God has entrusted with His creation.

The parable of the talents comes to mind. Three servants were each entrusted with a portion of their master's money and told to invest it. That is how it is with us. The question is will we be like the first two servants who invested their master's money wisely or like the third servant who hid it in the ground?

I like how the English word "talent" actually has two meanings. The one meant here, of course, is currency. But I think the other meaning--our skills and abilities--can apply as well. After all, we belong to God ourselves. Our talents, our skills, they all come from God. We have a responsibility to use those to His glory.

Think about what God has given you, about what He has entrusted you with. From you money to your talents to the fruit of your labor--how are you using these gifts to bless others and bring glory to God? If the task seems overwhelming, just start with the tithe and let it spread from there.

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Holiness: Words

With [our tongue] we bless our Lord and Father, and with it we curse people who are made in the likeness of God....my brothers these things ought not to be so. -- James 3:9

"Words have power." We've heard it a million times. "Guard your tongue." So the preachers tell us over and over again. "Do not speak evil of others." We know it's wrong to gossip and slander (called "lashon hara" in Hebrew). Yet, our tongues slip so easily. And then there's all the noise, the words that mean nothing but take up space.

Last fall I wrote about perspective, how our focus steers the way we act. This is closely related to words. James tells us that the tongue is like the rudder of the ship. The way we speak affects the way we see things. The words you say become what you believe. When you speak negatively, your attitude becomes negative. But when you speak words of love, when you pray for your enemies, when you bless God who gives and takes away--your focus turns toward those things. Prayer is an amazing tool that we have been given to help us with this.

There's another tradition I've found helpful. The Jewish people have a tradition to say at least one hundred blessings a day. Now, I can't say that I make to one hundred each day, but I have found it helpful to say a quick blessing here and there. Look around you--there are so many things to bless God for. His daily provision, His wonderful creation, His loving discipline, His abundant grace. And when things don't go so well, bless our Redeemer who will one day make all things new.

Bless God for the people around you and pray for them. Bless and do not curse. Bless God who created you, who carefully formed your body and your mind and your spirit, who planted in you dreams and equipped you with talent. You bear the signature of divine, so do not degrade yourself. Bless and do not curse.

Think about how you use your words this week.


*As a side note, Jewish tradition connects leprosy to the sin of lashon hara (as when Miriam spoke against Moses and became leprous). Leprosy was considered the outward sign of the "uncleanness" that Yeshua spoke of in Matthew 15:18.

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Holiness: Purity

Well, this is what I originally intended to write about this week: purity. My brain just decided to break down a few days ago and write something else instead.

Let's start with the tzitzit. These blue fringes that God commands us in Torah to wear are traditionally made out of a wool/linen mixture--a mixture forbidden in any garment except that worn by the high priest. So, to me it's kinda like a small piece of the priesthood that we are given to wear. Just as the sons of Aaron were given as priests to Israel, we are like priests to the world--ambassadors of God, teaching His ways and leading the people to worship our King.

Another interesting fact about tzitzit is that the Hebrew word for "blue" (Techillot) is actually related to the Hebrew word for "bride" (Challah). And the language used in the commandment (Num. 5:38-40) echoes of remaining faithful to the marriage covenant between Israel and God. So, you could think of the tzitzit as a type of wedding ring.

In this light, I see the blue fringes as a reminder that we are to remain pure and faithful to our God just as a bride to her husband. Just as the priests were held to a higher standard of purity so that they could minister to the people, we must maintain a higher standard of purity so that we can minister before the nations. That means keeping ourselves pure from idols. That means guarding our eyes and our ears. That means guarding our hearts and keeping purity a priority in our friendships. We are not our own; we belong to God.

Do you wear tzitzit? What do they mean to you?

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Holiness: Fringes

I should have started here. It seems like such a small commandment. Put fringes on your garments. Let the thread of blue remind you of the commandments. Yet, within those blue fringes is where I see the beginnings of holiness. 

He doesn't say make whole garments out of blue. Just one thread. One tiny thread that makes the whole garment holy.

I'm listening to the radio today, hearing Brant talk about the Boston marathon explosion that just happened. Two explosions near the end of the finish line resulting in at least two deaths and dozens of injuries. And I'm tempted to just throw in the towel and let the whole world burn. I hear so much of this, the wickedness in the earth. The brokenness of the human race. I've become numb to it.

Brant pulled this quote from Mr. Rogers:

When I was a boy and I would see scary things in the news, my mother would say to me, "Look for the helpers. You will always find people who are helping.”

God says tie a thread of blue onto the four corners of your garments. Four--as in the four corners of the earth. There is a thread of blue in the corners of the globe. A single thread of holiness and love, the mark of the people of God. And this is where we are told to look. This is who we are instructed to be. The helpers, the healers of the world.

The world is broken. It has been broken and torn for six thousand years. This is where we live. So, I tie a string to my garment to remind me of who I am--servant of the Most High God, child of the One True King. And when I look at that thread of blue, I remember to look for the fingerprints of God in this world and to be His hands and feet. Because wherever you look, if you look hard enough, you will find the helpers. And just maybe He will give you and me the chance to be helpers too. All He asks for is one small thread.

This week, my challenge is to look at life as one large tapestry and find one place to weave in a thread of holiness.

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Holiness: Gates

You shall write them on the doorposts of your house and on your gates.

-- Deuteronomy 6:9

After living in my apartment for half a year, I finally bought a mezuzah and affixed it to the doorway. For those who don't know, a mezuzah is a parchment of Scripture contained within a decorative case. It is the traditional way of fulfilling the commandment above, to "write these words upon the doorposts of your house." Others may interpret this command more metaphorically (which I think is fair), but I want to show you why I think the traditional interpretation has benefit.

First of all, I do think the metaphorical (or "spiritual" if you prefer) meaning is at the heart of the commandment. Our homes are to be set apart to God through His commandments. In a world where darkness and sin pervade, our homes are one place that we can exercise some control over. It is up to us to decide what comes in and what goes out of our dwellings. We are to guard the "gates" from any uncleanness that might threaten the sanctity of our home.

The physical mezuzah, for me, serves as a reminder. It is all too easy to walk in and out and totally forget the distinction between the holy and the profane. As we try to get on with our hectic lives, everything starts to blend together. But, every time I walk through my doorway and touch the mezuzah, I remember Who my Protector is--the One who guards me physically and spiritually both inside and outside the home. I'm not going to tell you that hanging a mezuzah on your doorpost is a commandment, but I would encourage you to consider it as something that may help you in your walk.

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Let's take a deeper look at this commandment. We are told to write words of Torah upon the doorpost and gateways of our house. Where are the gateways and how do we guard them?

The most obvious gateway would be the door to your home. This is where you walk in and out everyday. This is where guests enter and leave and where you bring in your "stuff" from the store. A lot can pass through this gateway on a daily basis. When a friend or neighbor comes over, they leave their baggage at the door. Your home is set apart by the Torah; unclean spirits are not welcome. When you walk out, you walk out as an ambassador for Messiah. A gateway is two-way, you guard what comes in so that love and holiness may flow out.

There are other gateways that may not be quite as apparent. Television, internet, and phones all serve as gateways into the home. What is entering your home through these avenues? How can you affix words of Torah to these doorways? Just some questions to think about. I'd love to hear your thoughts.

Anyway, I've rambled long enough on this topic. How do you set apart your home?

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Holiness: Sabbath

For six days we work to make this world a better place. But the seventh we set aside to reflect on the good that God has done. 

Faithfulness, justice, and mercy. These are the attributes that should mark our work and our rest.

The six work days are about what we do--our work for the Kingdom. Wherever we are in life, God calls us to work faithfully as to Him, for He placed us where we are. Doesn't matter if that's writing books, forecasting storms, shoveling sand, or cooking for your siblings. We are to work with justice, always doing the right thing even when it hurts. And we are to work with mercy, for we are all human. We all make mistakes and we all need love. It's not just business. It is your post as an ambassador of the Most High.

On Sabbath we remember it's not about us. It's about our Father. This is when we recover our identity as the children of God. We remember His faithfulness to His Covenant, His justice for the poor, the stranger, the oppressed, and His mercy on His people. The work is done. It is finished. There is nothing we can add to or take away from what He has done. All that is left is for us to rest in His goodness.


How do you set apart the Shabbat?

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